all the feelings are coming back, i hate how im feeling like this, I HATE IT. because it shows how vulnerable i am, again. and this has to stop, before i fall in any deeper, and i cant afford to.. not in a crucial year like this. everything is coming back, and seriously its history repeating itself but this time everything's just perfect i have no idea why. and the only way out is for you to leave, since i can't fucking bring myself to.

i hate the predicament im in. it's like standing at the edge of a cliff and its gonna break off anytime and you cant move cos youre afraid any movement will cause it to break and youre just standing there, just holding your breath and praying so hard that you wont fall. and then suddenly i decide to take one big leap up to safety, and this jump can either save me, or i could fall to my death. i never know. and that's a perfect analogy to how im feeling now.

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I'm down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You're still in my thoughts




well the emo me, i have always loved that song. it's awesome. ok im gonna sleep alr. school's a drag. ):

late night phonecalls <3 <3 <3

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chivalry is dead

you are reading my blog because you are absolutely bored with nothing to do and im typing this because im in the exact same predicament as you.